Part one: I was looking for chikn in the snow in a panic alongside Huntingtown road (the dirt road I grew up on that’s next to a pond)and was making Jackie drive the van up and down in the blizzard but then she came bounding into my arms like a little bunny

Part two: I was in some sort of portal video game thing where I could zip around really fast by tucking up my knees and spraying this aerosol can behind me, I could jump so extremely high … I think I was avoiding mean girls and trying to be alone … just navigating a purple sky lit city scape and rocky cement ruins this was a lot of just exploring and going fast and being alone

Part three: I decided to skip work so I could sleep in and go to a SMC meeting at Jackie’s house (different than Jackie’s house in waking life) ‘‘em downing was there coloring in a sketch book and it was the 3 of us, ‘‘em didn’t look up the whole time but I was pretty on edge about them being there- I remember looking thru my own sketch book and being astonished at the beautiful drawings in there and couldn’t believe I had done them. Jackie told me they had to cut the meeting short bc they were going camping with jori danny and Zain and I asked if I could come and Jackie laughed and was like absolutely not and wouldn’t give me an explanation and I wasn’t trying to press them too hard in front of em so I went up stairs to the bathroom and started to have a panic attack, hyperventilate and there was this mini mouse stuffed animal and I was holding her and taking her shoes on and off and then I heard commotion downstairs so I decided I should probably switch rooms and I went into what I guess was Jackie’s room and was pacing and messing up my hair and I was trying so hard to text jori but as dreams go my phone was being impossible so I used these tiny colored rubber bands in a peg board and sealed it shut and somehow that was supposed to communicate to her that I couldn’t go camping. Then I went back downstairs and Jackie and Erin were cooking over this very large cast iron stove with an enormous pot and there was a lot of steam and smoke and Erin had to stand on a ladder to stir the pot and somehow it had gone from morning to night and i was also confused bc I thought they were going camping… but I was like listen bro I need u to tell me why I can’t come and Jackie qas like uhhh well… we just don’t really need another, how do I put it? “Teammate”

Then winked at me and I was like ok yah can You can just be honest with me and say that you don’t want me to come or something bc I feel like you’re pulling a weird power move where you’re trying to isolate me from my friends.

Then they got down and came over and were like ok here’s the truth, jk has this new drug -codex? You heard of it? (Also at this point Jackie’s house has developed into a full blown house party and there were a lot of ppl talking and perusing about and music)

I just rolled my eyes and walked away from Jackie and literally ran into jori who was like 6” taller than she normally is and her hair was more blonde and she had on these strange dark small thick rimmed glasses and I was liek ong hey! Can I give u a hug? And she was kinda weird and whatever about it so I tried to ask her about camping and she was obviously not listening to me and then jk came up and they were wearing like a pippy long stocking outfit or something and jori grabbed us in a hug and tried to smoosh us together and during the squeeze I very lightly bit jks collar bone and they were really upset about that and I realized I did something fucked up – anyway I caught a glimpse of myself in a passing mirror and looked so bad and decided I needed to leave or go change or something not to mention the whole scenario was feeling pretty awful so I went to find my shoes and went on the porch to grab my bike and put them on and jori came out with pink cigs and I was like “can I have one?” And she lit it and threw it at me but it was already mostly smoked down to the filter so I just tossed it and she was asking me kinda stuffily about some song and I was just so over literally everything and decided to wake up.